Hello, Kali, here, reminding you I'm not just a business but a human. Checking in, because it's been awhile. Pictured above is a group of seekers at a Yoga Nidra Training with Dr. Indu Arora in Asheville, North Carolina that took place this past February. This photo captures the essence of my love of learning. And my love for being part of a community that is connected by common interest and perhaps even by the stars.
It's been awhile since I've written here. I like to re-read where I was at before I write. I do this when I pick up my journal after a hiatus. I like to read what wisdom I captured...the lessons that were coming through but not fully integrated. The learnings I was sorting out, opening up to...the information that is not quite part of me but not outside of me either. The details that are churning into knowledge hanging out in my energy field waiting to be realized in the physical body.
Looks like when I last wrote, I spoke to you about pacing. I mentioned the need to slow down and not borrow from outside of my means. Turns out this is something I often talk about lately. Which reminds me of a time I had a visit with my friend in Divinity School. I got together with him after not seeing each other for 3 years. When he asked me how I was after recapping all the amazing things he was doing in his life, I told him I was "in transition." He laughed, "I feel like the last time I saw you, you said the same thing?!" I laughed, too. Not feeling defensive or judged but feeling light and inspired by this reflection he offered me.
"It's true, I feel like I'm in transition all the time. Maybe, this whole life time is like a transition for me?" I pondered. Maybe I'm in a part of my life cycle that is hard, like the transition time in the birthing process--the time where the mom wants to give up but also the time right before the baby is born. Maybe that's okay? Maybe I will always be there in that liminal space. Maybe it won't be until my work is done here...when I die...that I will be reborn?
This theme of the inbetween is huge in my life. The invisible realm that most people don't always pay attention to--I live there. The squiggly line between point A and point B...the journey. Oh I laugh at the New Agers talking about "the journey", but I am that person--it's good to laugh at yourself.
In my previous blog I mentioned my pacing was that of a distracted toddler and though the toddler thing is relatively new for me, the distracted thing is not. Where others have labeled me as "distracted", I see it as a strong ability to focus on one thing to the next--as a gift to be able to follow a thread of one seemingly unrelated thing to another. In a way I become blind to the big picture because I am so focused on the one thing. As a result my higher vision can become clouded when I do not allow myself to zoom out. I'm too zoomed into the present moment.
With the full moon in Capricorn I've been hearing the message that I need to focus but in a new way. I need to come back to the heart of the matter. I need to connect with my greatest desire and create from that place...the place of intention and clarity. When I say this I think about the FIRE essence from my Ignite Your Light program. And I think it's time to dig that out of the cupboard. It may sound counterintuitive with all this hot weather we have going on, but now is the time for me to really explore the reason why I came to be here. To look at what my passions are made of and where they may take me.
I did a card reading for myself at lunch today and I wanted to share it with you in the case it may inspire you. It was a 5 card spread and was done with the full moon in Capricorn energy in mind. The first card asked the question: What is the foundation you need to lay to succeed? The 2 words on the card I drew were "Choice + Ambition". The card said I need to stop attempting to do everything at once and focus inward...there's that word again. FOCUS. Can you relate?
I won't go into depth on the whole reading. But I will tell you that it also told me that I need to keep going and be adaptable. I also need to develop my craft...I know, I know...I've been searching for the next program, for my guru, but where? It did not say that much. I have my ideas and I will be okay with being quiet here as I find my way.
I had to laugh again when I drew for my long-term plan...the Transformation card came up with the word, "Transition + Liberation"...so coming full circle to my earlier reflection, I know I am on the right path.
The other messages of note remind me that my ambitions are best applied to a collective effort, that I work best in synergy with my surroundings. And that the kind of support I must seek and give is action that is love-driven. That I must take time to dip into joy and pleasure and find the people and practices that give me emotional security--a platform to feel my emotions but not let them take me over. To emote from a place of integrity and not manipulation. All of this is life-affirming.
As part of my process of giving power to what's real for me, I'm sharing this with all of you, letting you know that I am calling in my truest desire, to find clarity in my purpose for being here and to commit to it with wild abandon and joy. I look forward to seeing how that may be reflected in my work at Moon River and in my personal life.
What is it for you that you are holding space for? Tell me! I'm happy to share in listening and affirming your journey. And our studio is always here inviting you to stop by and reconnect to your heart.
That said, I hope you join us for our first Meditation on Twin Hearts night -- this Friday (tomorrow, 6/29) from 7:30-8:30pm. The meditation is recorded and will be played and practiced together. There will be time for tea afterwards. Some more seasoned pranic healers will be there for you to meet!
Preregister here or just show up!
Until next time,